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Feb. 3rd, 2006 @ 07:36 am
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wow. i havnt written in here for quite some time uh. ive had so many changes take place just this last year, man i moved 5 times. i wasnt very stable, so now i have my own place again, free and clear. i have this beautiful suite, with an upstairs loft.....it has volted ceilings, and a wonderful skylight. it is so perfect, the rent is only 450, all inclusive, with laundry, and not to mention a kick ass landlord. ive waited all year(2005) to become stable and get to know myself a little better, on every level, mainly spiritualy. i was with someone for 6 months, and it ended in november, kind of ugly. but i learned so much from that. he was alot older than me. im talking like 15 years. woah. it was only my second relationship......but my really exciting news is actually quite wonderful-i met this guy from the coffee shop(i vowed to never date a custoimer again) hehe but this one inparticular caught my eye. so back in december we hung out a bit, took things really slow and whatnot....his name is sheahan. pronounced shay-han. hehe. hes 24, he grew up in Gabriola. just outside of nanaimo. hes a real hippie:P dreads to his bum man! and its so natural with us, when people used to say "i just knew when i met the right guy" i was always a little hesitant. but you know what.....you know those thoughts we all have when we are all alone by ourselves, and content with it of course, and you always dream of the person you really feel like you could connect with? well i have found exactly that. breaking up with chris and let alone being with him for 6 months really hel;ped me figure out what i want and what i dont want. then its almost like sheahan came along and i was wowed. and fully prepared, yet very unexpected. i want you guys to meet him (robyn, stever, christina, amy, lois) hes fully captured my heart in every way. he cooked me dinner one of the first nights, and we sat around his fireplace and talked for hours. its insane how compatible we are frick. its almost like ive been internally preparing myself for him, and him for me..... obvlivioslyin the past little while. i have no doubts. who says that man. usually i say i have doubts, or i dont listen to those doubts, and carry on. but with him--man i better stop talking about it...hehe i get really warm when i think about the future. oh yah, i alomst forgot this wasnt my diary. hehe |
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Nov. 19th, 2005 @ 04:39 pm
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well, here i am again, because i havnt had a rightful phone line to call you all on, i was telling myself for a while now that i would write in here. i found a plce with chris, in whom i move in with next weekend! man, no more of this roommate bullshit! no more, free and clear guys. the new place is actually quite wonderfull! the bathroom is huge, actually everyrooom in the house is large, and all we pay is 5oo a month. not bad i say. the bathroom has a bathtub and a shower! you know how long its been since ive had a frikken bathtub in my house!! long ass time man! since my first place in new west! its been a crazy crazy time. so candle lit baths by my damn self will be where its at man. i just thought of somthing pretty random, honest while typing this i was thinking in my head I MISS ROBYN, STEVE AND HOLLY. honest, thats xcrazy! how are you guys, robyn hows life with your man!? i see you havnt written in hgere for a while too, so i assume you are very busy! yay! stever, hope the new place is good and kicken, and holly, i dont think you even have a livejournal. so forget that! work sucks ass sometimes. but others its okay, today i had a wonderfull time at work, why cant everyday be like that! but i feel kind of off. a bit sad, im not sure why, guess its one of those days, but you know what! the fog was really beautiful today! love it.....okay, ive got to go to superstore now, get some eggs, and a prescription filled. have a nice time doing what you are doing(in the present moment of reading this)Current Mood:  blank Current Music: tv--hockey-hate it |
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sometimes you just seem to feel lost and its like no one knows even who you are? she feels like this often, she even tells me herself. she hates the feeling where she feels uncontent with any situation handed her way. man shes so effin confused. yes, me me. im confused, why guys. lend me a hand for this one. i just dont feel understood. help me understand, that i myself am normal too....Current Mood:  melancholy Current Music: death cab for cutie |
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oh wow, its been like......forever, i cant even remember how to effin type in here! hehe.
so, i think ive chosen a new career path, this coffee shop shat is really taxin' me big time-huge time. im not talking government taxes here. im talking kelsea tax man. yah-
so anyhow, im thning school might just be it for me now, even though im a few thou in debt, that can wait, i need realy bad to effin apply myself and my smarts to school, i was thinking a program for "community care worker" i think that would just be effin awesome. then i could meet some really cool people and do my absolute best in helping people. and hey, i know them people would benefit me too! oh man!
yesyes. i do have a man now too, well actually almost 4 months now! its rockin actually. he is chris. that is he. we lived together along with 3 other roomies too for a while there. we moved in around the same time and hit it off;) hehe. im really liking this dude man. i have to say, i really finally know how i should be treated as a woman with value. its cool. hes cool. im cool-i think...........hehe anyhow. i like how new directions in life creep up, but i can tell you this much, ultimatly, we have our own answers man. i cant let anyone else tell me what to do wth my life, i need to follow my desires and passions. because they are mine man. and enough of this..procrasination garbage. about my life, school etc..im movin on to bigger better thingies!! yeha! k, im gonna try to post more in here now. i have access to a comp at all times now, i live in surrey, whalleywood to be exact. still! hehe im tellin yah, i like it here big time. im renting a downstairs room about 2 blocks, not even from my work, a dude who used to work here, i house sit for his and his wives house sometimes. so they offered for me to move in, heck yes! rent is cheap and i get my own little place, cozy enough downstairs! okie, really now-im tired. goodnight. |
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aww yay ya yay! i have a cell phone now folks, so please please please remember this number im about to flash here on my livejournal, i dont even care who gets it as long as robyn, holly, stever, christina and amy get it! yay! here it is(checking phone....) 778-228-1672......... shmanks, now what i will do is transfer your numbers into that phone so i can call you too, 3 months without a p[hone. i died for a while man. anywho, i dont have voicemail, but i do have call display, so come on come on come on.......yay.......
Aug. 11th, 2005 @ 10:16 pm
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just dropped lois off at work, got a timmy ho's man. yummers. its kind of a nice morning out. it has a nice crisp breeze to it. that just made me think of breezeway in whiterock. aww the byn to the r works there. can ya'll figure out who that is? hehe and steve, you ar exempt from this one because i know youll know right away? hehe got any takers on this mini quiz?!
Jul. 2nd, 2005 @ 06:43 am
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oh my gooooooooooosh!! i miss this i wanna sit down, and hold you in my lap, you little live journal you!! whew!! awwwwwwww...im at work here in the am. im tired i think, man can you guess what now guys?! my ninth week, with so many hardtimes, yet so many good ones too. but i just have to say im 23 lbs lighter!! yay! and my take on food is far better than its ever been. its nice to seee results after working so effin hard!
anywho, im moving out on the 16 og july, somewhere around there yonder. my pal margaret and i have planned on moving out for a while now, but now we have found a place. our friend, well her love in all, he owns a place dowtown, skeezy whalleyish area. it has 5 bedrooms, so her and i will move into one of em! and rent dudes! 150 each a month! our pal tyler lives there as well as chris. we all get along fabulously. there are 2 kitchens and all that fun stuff, i know i myself am a lonley bird at times, im really diggin the solitude, so we can all be pretty respectable that way!~ im pretty stoked! they have a jam room, considering all the guys are pretty 'harCORE' hehe so kels can hook up her acoustic and giver'
wow. hehe okie i better get back to work, but to my glory i just glanced outside and holy maners, its rainy......no guys, not men. its rainy and foggy. lovin it. i miss whoever reads this:) so long.
Jun. 30th, 2005 @ 07:51 am
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this is week two on my weightloss/health kick, living with my pastor, wife and their three kiddios. its good times, yet soo effin hard i say! so now im at work here this eve, stayed overtime to clean for our sunday gathering here in the morn. im waiting around for lois until about 8 i guess. so i thought i would kindly update my little ol journal, its been a while, i dont have acomp at their house so.....this is it! yay! hehe robyn..i love you man, i like your posts. this comp is really slow so if you see that i havent rteplied and that i would just mention somthing abiout you on mine im sorry! hehe. okie, im going to go enjoy my coffee and smoke out on the patio here, listening to the edge. lovin it guys. calvin, whats with the kissingness? do you have a woman!? oh geez, god is always good to you in that department. hehe! awwww.........until next time
May. 14th, 2005 @ 07:42 pm
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well. i think im having a hard time here. im feeling a little i dont know, say secluded in a sense. im moving into a house where the support will be times a billion. my spiritual journey will be muchly supported on ALL sides. and i mean everything. my purpose for moving to my faithcoaches house is simply to get a new perspective on things, such as health, fitness, not only of my body in a physical way, but im so ready to work out my spirit. and im very scared. i guess though lots of prayer and devotion of my thoughts, ive realized its really time to change. but, im scared! jeesh.
my main motive for moving is to get my butt in some serious gear, get healthy. its awesome the way it all worked out, i was fully expecteing to do this week long detox for a kickstart and now im moving in for two months, to use some hardcore vitamins and minerals, and detox agents. ill be so surprised in my energy level! yay! okay i think im rambling on or somthing. but i just wanted to share my excitment and the scardy cat in me. why should i be? i guess ill meet god on all new levels. itll be hard to kick out of old habits. we all know that. so less than one week. and im goners. holla
Apr. 24th, 2005 @ 10:16 pm
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oh man. can you believe it? nope, i sure cant. im moving in with my pastor, his wife and their 3 kids. im soo effin stoked about it!!
this is how it all started...(they have a company called "royal body care")
i wanted some encouragment with my health, so i went to see them on friday, had some lunch and chatted. i thought maybe id do some detox, maybe pray about it, pray for me....but no, they offerd to have me 'room with them starting with 2 months. and i will fully use "tons" of their royal body care products. ohh man!! im so blown away by it. for real. who does that. they care "that" much??! wow. they said they want me to be a success story for their company, and in the midst of all this stuff, i get to become healthy not only physically, but on a huge spiritual level also. how encouraging will it be to live with my pastor and his wife. im beyond happy. infact- im incredibly"______"somthing, im lost for words. i need alot of prayer for this too. i know ill struggle with things being there. you know, my old ways.....and i think maybe even being good enough..you know. they will see all my crummy ways....just living there and stuff. alot of pressure on self i suppose. but i know god has opened this door. im so confident in that.
its so crazy how i go their thinking you know maybe a hundred bucks for a week detox. and this is what i get offered? it leads me to fully believe that god is way bigger than i give him credit for....thankyou jesus. you da man
Apr. 18th, 2005 @ 10:16 pm
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my destination just might b e my bed. im fairly tired. i worked a hard week so far, i dont mean to complain but i have, its true, and ive been trying to beat this cold thats lingering. i even worked out also. yesterday i went for a run in the rain. it was indeed muchly pleasant. but im going to watch a movie, or maybe hit the sac for some midnoon zzzz.................
Apr. 13th, 2005 @ 04:28 pm
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oh mah goodness.......i really need to post in here more often. this will officially be my second post. but come on, its not my second post EVER. just here, just now. HERE. NOW. so.......what do i want to post about. somtimes i feel that if i write in here, its like a counselling session. but today i dont want it to be, i dont want it to be about my worries, or even my cares for that matter. so lets just write about what my brain is thankful for. hmm....well i like my friends. i think i really do, like..actually like them. everyone of em has this different type of "sweetness" that i just love to pieces. i seem to really conect with each one of 'em in different ways altogether. none are the same. god is a pretty cool dude if he can pull that one off. sometimes ill sit there and think "hmm tonight could be a ______ night!" now,. you, yes you, put your name in there and say it outloud. dont you ever do that? hehehe i love it! okay. coolness.
Apr. 12th, 2005 @ 04:17 pm
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my first post ever!! cheers to the new journal(this is my forst post as my "cool" new name. hehe
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